Have you ever felt as though once you reached college, you had to pretend as though you were someone else? You know the person who’s mature, sophisticated, has their life all together, flashy, blah blah blah, all that fun stuff. Well I’ll be honest with you, I’m far from that. I’m a goofball, I laugh at every little thing, I suffer from depression, I fail classes and tests. I do things that bring me pleasure. That’s. just. ME.
Growing up I felt as though I had to pretend and hide who I really was. I mean who becomes friends with someone who literally fights with voices in her head? Who would rather sit alone in a dark room, than be with a group of people? Who feels like utter crap? You wouldn’t right? Let me guess, it’s probably because, I don’t fit your “standards” of the “ideal “person. I mean I don’t have perfect grades, I’m not an extrovert, I don’t see the joy in things like others might see, and say “what’s wrong with you”, don’t you have a heart.?” Welp guess I don’t.
I DON’T CARE ABOUT YOUR OPINIONS OF ME!! I am who I am. I can’t live for you and forget all about me. Judge me as much as you want, but I’ve come to accept who I am, as an amazing human being.
You have to learn to live for today, and live for you. Yes, you. Don’t let the words of others dictate who you are as a person. Do what will make you happy, do things that make you lay in bed and think, ” I don’t see anything wrong with me”. Learn to accept yourself and don’t invite anyone in your life, that can’t accept you for you.
Shoot – I’m still learning how to love me wholeheartedly. But guess what? Once you start doing that, it’ll be hard to ever turn back. Remember to live in love, peace, and happiness. I’ll see you guys next time, being the best you, you can be.
Anastasia W. Class of 2018 Major: English Minor: Psychology Blog Theme: Patience, Love & Acceptance
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